You know the verse that says we shouldn’t grow weary of doing good? Well, I failed. Pretty badly.
As we geared up start the Wicket Gate again this week like we had scheduled, I could barely bring myself to think about it. As if I hadn’t been busy enough trying to keep up with work at church, cleaning the apartment, homework, my job, and the planning that comes before student teaching. How was I ever going to fit blogging and podcasting back into my schedule? Besides, I have really enjoyed having a few minutes off sometimes to nap…
Every time that I’ve thought about all the writing, the editing, the social media posts, the link-ups and the podcasting, I have just felt exhausted. Then I tried to talk myself into keeping the break going longer. Maybe forever. Was all the work really worth it? I wondered some days.
And this attitude has popped up now and again in other areas of my life, too.
That’s why that verse is so important (since I’m sure I’m not the only one who struggles with this. If no one else, at least the people Paul was writing to did). Really, I should hang it up somewhere in my house. In full, it says:
“And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” – Galatians 6:9
So how do I know that the Wicket Gate is good?
- It brings glory to God’s name.
- I have seen God work through it to help people, including myself, draw closer to Him.
- We are 100% certain that this is something that God has called us to do.
(And #2 even shows me how God is already allowing me to reap from it!)
In other words, it definitely fits into the category of “doing good” in Galatians 6:9, yet I was willing to throw that all away because I was tired.
This isn’t to say that we should never get tired. We are human! We need sleep and we need rest. God wove rest right into the fabric of life when He Himself rested in Genesis 2:2. And if we are running around madly, like a chicken with its head cut off, are we really doing our best for God anyway? Is there even real worship in that?
We took a break from the Wicket Gate with a lot of prayer and a lot of thought. We didn’t take it lightly, but we were sure it was the right thing to do. We needed it. But what is the difference between then and now? What’s the difference between tiredness and weariness?
The difference is my heart. I know that I love the Wicket Gate and that it is the work that God gave me, but my heart this time around is out of line.
And what causes that misalignment? Well, lots of different things… If I looked back at other times when I have felt that same disconnected, misaligned weariness, I would say that I feel most weary when…
- I’m not focused on God (less prayer time, less time in His Word, …)
- I’m not trusting Him to bring the outcome He wants (having no tangible results is exhausting).
- I’m doing too many extra things.
- I’m not Heaven focused. I’m not thinking about what really matters.
- I’m not trusting in God for my strength and energy, but am trying to make it all work on my own.
Sound familiar to anyone?
And it’s more than just working on the Wicket Gate that these things can chip away on. They hurt my teaching in church, my love for others, my prayer life, my Bible reading, my witnessing, my work ethic… Anything that I know God has called me to can just go kaput if I stop fighting these energy leeches off.
So, as we get things going around here again (which I promise, I really am excited about!), I have a few verses that I am going to keep in my heart and on my mind (besides Galatians 6:8).
- “Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.” (Psalm 31:24)
- “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)
- “And He said to me, “‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (1 Corinthians 12:9-10)
What verses encourage you when you feel “weary of doing good”?