Let me tell you, folks, I have had a rough couple of weeks. I don’t know if I have ever said that I wanted to quit something more often than I have this past week, and I’m not sure if a week has ever gone more slowly. I keep thinking things like, “Ok, so since it’s Thursday, I need to get home and…. no, wait. It’s still Monday…”
I’m just not in a place in my life that thrills my soul right now. But the thing is, I KNOW this is where God has called me to be. There is no doubt in my mind that every time I have asked God if there was maybe somewhere else He might want be to be or some other thing He might want me to be doing (you know, just keeping that quitting option on the table in case God wants to direct me that way), He has told me to stay here.
Have you ever been there? Have you ever been in that place where technically you are walking the path God wants you to walk, but you make sure to remind Him how much you don’t want to be there?
Yeah… we need to work on that.
After all, there are scores of verses reminding us of what our attitudes should be…
- “And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ.” -Colossians 3:23-24
- “Do all things without complaining and disputing, that you may become blameless and harmless, children of God without fault in the midst of a crooked and perverse generation, among whom you shine as lights in the world…” -Philippians 2:14-15
And there are verses that say that God, the Designer and Definition of Goodness, has a plan uniquely designed for us…
- “Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.” -Psalm 139:16
Plus the ones that tell us of His wisdom that is past understanding… (AKA A whole lot better than our wisdom)
- “Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, The Creator of the ends of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable.” -Isaiah 40:28
Added together, these verses make my little complaints and my many declarations that I really don’t need to suffer through this season, look embarrassingly shallow.
Then, on top of all of that, I am reminded that no one has more thoroughly suffered through something than Jesus did, yet He did it with joy. God Himself came to Earth, “made Himself of no reputation, taking the form of a bondservant and coming in the likeness of men,” (Philippians 2:7) and then He lived that life all the way to the Cross. We read in Luke 22:42 that Jesus dreaded the pain and suffering of the Cross, that He even asked if there was another way, but He modeled for us what perfect, humble submission looks like. He said, “Father, if it is Your will, take this cup away from Me; nevertheless not My will, but Yours, be done.”
That is a truly submissive heart. It can’t be faked by right actions, but must go right down to our core. Whether we are making big life choices, staying where God puts us, or even following God’s commands to speak kindly, love the tough-to-love, or work hard, God wants all of us, not just our hands and feet. Following God wherever He leads, for the big picture and the passing details, that is an obedient heart.
What about you? Are you struggling with your attitude even while you are obeying? Are you still working to cultivate a submissive heart? What has been helping YOU?
I would love to hear some more encouragement or to pray with you over your struggles!